Tuesday, April 04, 2006

Take a Moment to Write

Everytime when i feel like writing a blog, it's either i felt sleepy or am having blank mind of not knowing what to write. And each time i started writing, i will have lots of things i want to say, yet couldn't find a way to organize what i am saying. So, often, i will shift from one idea to another idea, and returning to the first idea again. What a pathetic writer i am!

The past few weeks have seen me sitting in front of my laptop very often, making plans and organizing my assignments as well as my leisure. Reflecting on the four units i am taking this semester, i think that classes or workshops are less hectic compared to the previous two semester. In one week, i only have three days of university academic, with 1 1/2 - 3 hours in each. However, this does not mean that i have less work this sem. Rather, i have lesser assignment with more and higher order thinking problems. Many of my assignments this semester see and test my ability to relate what i know (all the crappy THEORIES) to my teaching practices.

And, speaking of teaching practices, right now i am undergoing my 5th week of School Based Experience in East Brisbane State School. Disappointingly, each time i go and arrive at the school, i would feel tired and exhausted for no reason after a period of two - three hours in class. I have kids coming up to me to ask for assistance, ask what i am doing, ask to do this and that, ask all the unthinkable questions. At this stage of language teaching, i found myself not very competent in language as well as language teaching. I always found problems in teaching them, trying all ways to get my meanings over, trying so hard to make them noticed the connection between two formulas or numbers. Sighhhh, i have failed in all these. See how terrible i am at teaching.

Often, te question of whether i am destined to be a teacher raises when i am faced with problems, be it in assignments or teaching practices. What i know very well is that i need to excel in my units or university, without considering how my future career as a language teacher will be.


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Okie, moving on to something more interesting and exciting, today, i have two good friends coming all the way from UK. Doreen and Allen touched down at Brisbane airport this morning at 7am, which later took them 2 hours to get pass all the imigresen and stuffs. It's good to have them to come that we can go out 'kai kai' and get pissed or something. Probably, this is a good opportunity for me to get away from all the pilling-up assignments.

Right now still not sure where to bring them. But, I won't worry too much coz there's too many places you can walk and go around Brisbane. Places like Dream World, Movie World, Surfers Paradise, SouthBank, Mt Cootha etc etc are excellent examples of having good peaceful vacation.

Most importantly, i shall certainly going to have great time enjoying every moment with them, before them leaving to Sydney in one week time. Right now, i just feel like having a good sleep, after spending the whole morning and afternoon in the school, and when i slept at 3am last night, which make me half zombie this morning when i woke up. Looking at the time now - 6.48pm, it's still early to call it a day. I guess i just have to fought this night through. Sighhh, tomorrow's Jo Carr reading i have yet to read it. Later baru pikir bout it lar..... *mentally exhausted*