I believe in you

IL DIVO LYRICS- I Believe In You (Je Crois En Toi)

Lonely
The path you have chosen
A restless road
No turning back
One day you will find your light again
Don't you know
Don't let go
Be strong

Chorus:
Follow you heart
Let you love lead through the darkness
Back to a place you once knew
I believe, I believe, I believe in you
Follow your dreams
Be yourself, an angel of kindness
There's nothing that you can not do
I believe, I believe, I believe in you.

Tout seul
Tu t'en iras tout seul
Coeur ouvert
A L'univers
Poursuis ta quete
Sans regarder derriere
N'attends pas
Que le jour
Se leve
Suis ton etoile
Va jusqu'ou ton reve t'emporte
Un jour tu le toucheras
Si tu crois si tu crois si tu crois
En toi
Suis la lumiere
N'eteins pas la flamme que tu portes
Au fonds de toi souviens-toi
Que je crois que je crois que je crois
Que je crois
En toi
Someday I'll find you
Someday you'll find me too
And when I hold you close
I'll know that is true
Follow your heart

Chorus:
Let you love lead through the darkness
Back to a place you once knew
I believe, I believe, I believe in you
Follow your dreams
Be yourself, an angel of kindness
There's nothing that you can not do
I believe, I believe, I believe in you.

Left and Right brain

".... If you do not use your RIGHT brain, you are LEFT with the WRONG side of the brain,
and nothing great LEFT."

Change

Tonight, as I looked back at the days passed by, I can’t believe myself making such a positive adaptation to the life of IPBA. There are so many things which I wish to whinge about but I stay calm and tolerant over them, believing always that there are people out there who might not be as fortunate as I am. Things such as better Internet expectation, better collection of resources, better choices of food, better environment for learning, better accommodation, better weather and better transportation, are just some of the impossible things that will ever happen here. Somehow, I could adapt myself nicely here, without facing too much of a hassle.

Things change; situations change; people change. That’s the beauty of life. I can’t deny that some of my friends here have changed big time, physically, mentally, emotionally, intellectually. While taking some time to catch up with the latest gossips, I was made aware of some friends who have actually changed drastically and are now complete different people. Yesterday, I was just telling one of my friends that I could not believe all of us now are back together again. It seemed like yesterday we met and today we are seeing each other again. I remembered last time, I had to go to one place to see collective of friends there, and today, we are seeing each other everyday even if we don’t wish to. He nodded in agreement. I guess changes are inevitable and it is not a good thing though if we are on the purpose of discovering more about our inner self.

I don’t know how coming back to IPBA will change me. Will it ever change me? Or will I obstruct myself from making any changes? Will it change me for better or for worse? Will I be the same person as how I looked like when I leave this place end of this year? How would I look like? Many uncertainties. I believe there will be unpredictable roads which I will step on and walk on it as I go along this year. But will I pull off from this road? How do I know if this road leads to greater discovery of me?

Today, I finished reading a biography book called ‘My Story’ by Lim Goh Tong. It’s interesting to read and notice how his life has changed from one occupation to another. Though he started his dream of building Genting in his 50’s, I believe what he had gone through in the past had slowly and consecutively prepared him to be who he is today and what he has accomplished today. What he’d gone through were the positive values and attitudes of ongoing effort, perseverance, think positive, decisiveness, never give up, respect for risk-taking, and one who believes that there is always something: something to think of, something to make thing happen, something to do, something more than just something, something in something and something good in everything.

I have yet to find out where I am heading to in years to come. The fact that I have come back IPBA marks a last hurdle to my life as a student teacher. What’s certain ahead is the road to primary school for few years (maybe 3 or 4 years) which is essential for my experience and my vocation – my purpose in life. One thing I noticed about my life is as I walk on this life journey, this journey is becoming tougher and harder, with its own obstacles, temptations, doubts, uncertainties and challenges. Questions become more difficult to answer; friendship becomes harder to maintain; people become weirder beyond our comprehension; situations become harder to handle.

But u know, it’s always good or should I say BEST is to stay positive, to think positive, and to act positive.

Ps: I must thank Biribiri for encouraging me to write an appeal letter to Peter. Apparently, Jo replied me later with conviction that Peter has agreed to give me an extra mark. I am waiting in eager for the change. Thanx to my mum and dad too for supporting and praying unceasingly for me. U guys are the best!

it begins

It's a new semester now,
There is so much to hope for now.

There have been disappointment,
and there have been contentment.

So many assignments,
So few books.

So many things to think about,
So few solutions received.

So many unpredictable events,
all i need is trust, hope, believe, and love.

a letter from Jo

This is a letter from the person who has made great impact in my life. It's meant to be kept as a reminder for me ALWAYS in this final year.

Date: Mon, 08 Jan 2007 10:06:59 +1000
To: ed47cohort 1@qut.edu.au
From: jo carr
Subject: hello and welcome back!


Welcome back to 4th year! - am thinking of you all, imagining you settling in, sorting yourselves out, getting used to shared accommodation again, reconnecting with the rest of the cohort - goodness, what tales to tell and news to swap! Will be fascinating for you all. All my very, very best for this final year now beginning. Some great challenges - will be looking forward to hearing how it all goes. Hope what we did together over the two years will have helped you to do really well. I have great confidence in you all.


Hope you all had a wonderful break. Heard from quite a few of you - sounding so happy and relaxed - this is good. I am about to write your end of year reports - with apologies for being so late - but there was really nothing I could do about it before now. They'll be with IPBA as soon as I can finish them. It will feel rather final then, I guess: you really have gone! Miss you all. Loved working with you and knowing you - and look forward to seeing you when I come to KL - though we usually meet at the times when your on holiday, so that may not work out.

OK - all for now. Bon courage for your settling back into IPBA mode... work hard, take it easy, breathe deeply at regular intervals! Send me news from time to time, and let me know if I can help with anything. Will have Cohort 3 arriving next month, and am to be teaching Cohort 2 as well as the new one - so will be pretty Malaysian-busy, which I'm happy about. I'm also now the TESOL Coordinator, since my friend Jane has retired, so am going to have my hands full. I too will remember to breather deeply..

Take care all of you,

Jo.

time to let go

Two years ago, one of my assignments in 2nd semester was 83.5. It was disasterous to see that with one and a half mark, i would get a 7 already. There was nothing much i could about it after having to know from my lecturer, Jim that my mark would not be changed. I let it go.

Last year, same thing happened again. 84 this time. Even worse! 1 mark. After months of sending and receiving emails from him (Peter), the dream of hoping to get a 7 is shattered. What do u want me to do? pleading to him to have it corrected again? flying there to plead him? NO way.

truly, there is no reason for me not to not hope again for a 7. Miracle doesn't happen all the time, i guess. Things don't go the way we want them to be. Timing is not right. Everything is in place yet they seem to be sinking. i think and think. think of why he won't give me just 1 mark? professional ethics? discriminations? past phobia? all full of crap reasons.

Looking elsewhere to find better reasons, i saw two words from a wooden frame, 'peace' and 'believe'. what's tat supposed to mean? to actually ask me to believe in miracles again and to believe that a 7 will turn out one day? hahaha...

i was devastated as i said, with this result thing, not with other thing. And i think sometimes, we just have to learn to let go what you cannot hang on to. like this result, there is no reason why i should keep or remain hope in it again. i did what i can. yet Miracle didn't happen. So that's it. End of the story. Case closed! to hope that miracle to get a 7 will happen again is to cling on to the past. Sighhh. life has so much more to offer u than to cling on ur past.

Should i let go of this hope? or should i not? i have let go of any form of miracle that will ever happen on this.

Time will tell.